I was born 1969 in Switzerland. I have been a monk for ten years and was a Catholic priest for eight years. I left the ministry in 2008. Two years later I left the Church.
My childhood was influenced by a Catholic education. Around the age of 19, I decided to seek peace in God, because the material world was no longer enough for me. I wanted to renounce the world and let myself be completely absorbed in the love of God ... I went to the monastery and became a monk. There I practiced in poverty, chastity, obedience, humility and asceticism. In deep meditations, I felt this living God within me, and intimately explored the knowledge of Christian mysticism. A new world opened to me.
When I was ordained a priest, I was pulled out of this inner silence into the world. I left the monastery and supervised a small community in Central Italy. There I had more time to focus on myself and I began to open my mind. At the same time I was confronted with terrestrial matters. And that was fine. But I began to ask questions. I asked my priest-colleagues and my bishop critical questions, I tried to provoke to understand the truth better. My childish faith had developed into an matured faith, which was no longer satisfied with standardized answers. The gap between me and the Church grew bigger.
At the same time I wanted to help the people entrusted to me. Not only spiritually, but also of a holistic nature. Therefore I started to train myself as a yoga teacher and body therapist.
One day, my bishop made me make a decision and told me that I was either a priest or a therapist, but both together would not be possible. I decided without hesitation: therapist.
Who was I when I was at the age of 19 during my conversion? A lover.
Who was I in the monastery? A sufferer.
Who was I as a priest? A searcher.
Who am I now? A freed one.
I do not regret anything I have experienced. I went through processes. I was able to grow and gain experiences. It was a wonderful time. But now I was permitted to take one step further.
"There is nothing more magnificent in all the world that you can do than to give people back to themselves. It is a step-like process, which I was allowed to learn during these years. And I also realized that it is my purpose to help others going through this process."
It is my concern to accompany people on their way of liberation. I know how the Church manipulates using power, fear and guilt to keep people small and dependent. It is time to let go and break new ground.
Ways of self-empowerment and self-responsibility.
There is no need for intermediaries, no gurus, no experts. Take your life back into your own hands.